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A Whole New Way To Think About Fear That Changes Everything We've Been Taught

A baby bird flew into our house.

I’d left the back door open to drink in the crisp air never expecting a winged creature to begin whizzing through various rooms, perching on door frames, staring at me from the ceiling fan.

Leif and I tried everything we knew to scoot our new friend to safety. The tiny bird didn't understand that the dashing was dangerous. The distrust made it more difficult to set him free.

The incident reminded me that we do this sometimes, too. Continue Reading...

When Life Spirals Out of Control

My four-pound superpup, Hershey brings so much joy to my life. Even with his small size, he certainly packs a powerful punch in the ways God uses him in my life.

I think back to a few years ago when Leif and I met him for the first time.

Tiny. Timid. Fearful.

As we gently picked him up to take him home for the first time, fear filled his body. We were taking him from everything he knew and was familiar—and it showed.

No eye contact. Tail between the legs. His tiny body trembling.

The whole drive we tried to offer comfort. We stroked his soft fur. We held him close. We kept repeating: Trust me. You’re going to be okay. Just trust me little Hershey. We’re going to take care of you.  

But he didn’t listen or understand. Like a horse with blinders, he was only focused on the fear around him, not realizing that we had his best intentions in mind and the fullness of life we were offering him. Continue Reading...

Trusting God Even When You’re Afraid (Wednesdays with Walter)

It's no secret that Leif and I have struggled over the years to connect spiritually through our personal times of devotion. In the early days of our marriage, we tried a laundry list of things that simply didn't work.

One year, we began reading Oswald Chambers together on January 1st.

By January 18, we couldn't even find the book.

We attempted reading the same passages of scripture for discussion, but also felt a sense of awkward disconnect. We tried reading the same books, listening to the same sermons among other practices, and yet it always felt forced, unnatural, anything but, well, organic. Continue Reading...

This Fourth of July, Don’t Forget Whose You Are

Recently I was invited to a gathering of three dozen religious leaders where we dove into to the hottest and most controversial topics in the church. To be honest, I didn’t say a word. It was one of the conversations where I didn’t think anything I said would have moved the conversation forward.

I sat in silence.

A far less controversial question surfaced in the midst of the debate, “What is the core message of all that you write and teach?” [Tweet this]

And as people shared, I realized that my core message was different than everyone else in the room. I had that sneaking suspicion that, “One of these things is not like the other.”

For more than an hour people shared, and I, I sat in silence. Eventually we were dismissed.

And as I look back on that experience, I keep asking myself, “Why didn’t I speak up?” Continue Reading...


Leif and I had the privilege of sitting down with the head of Kenya for Compassion International, Joel, to learn more about their work to serve more than 93,000 kids throughout the nation.

“What’s the hardest part of your job?” I asked.

“Capacity,” Joel said. “We’ll have several hundred kids in line to get into one of our projects, but then there will be 50 or more that we have to say no—we want to help but there’s only so much you can do.”

“How do you keep your heart soft?” Leif piped in.

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