The last few weeks have been a blur of hospital visits and diagnostic tests as well as sleepless nights and anxiety. But can I tell you….
God has been so good, so faithful, so utterly amazing.
Of all the days that the news of the cancer could have arrived, I received the news less than half an hour before teaching the first of four sessions at a week-long family camp at Mount Hermon in California.
More than 40 members of Leif’s extended family had come in for a week from as far away as South Africa, Alaska, Hawaii, North Dakota, Ripon, and Fresno. I spent that week surrounded by loving family. When we arrived home from California, my parents who live on a remote island in the Bahamas greeted me. They only travel through Colorado twice a year, and the day we arrived home from California was one of those days planned long before.
Wherever we look—to the left or right—we see God’s perfect timing and presence. Our sweet office manager, Jessica, who has watched the details of all this unfold even observed, “God is so present in all of this—He’s obnoxious!”
Each day we find ourselves increasingly wonderstruck.
People fight cancer with many tools. And in this dirty-dog fight, you fight with anything you can. Some turn to anger. Others sadness. Others research. And others still, control. When it comes to cancer, the only rule is fight, fight, fight.
But my weapon of choice for this fight is joy.
I am fighting with laughter and happiness and levity and winsomeness and mirth and gladness and gratefulness. I’m taking on this Goliath battle, not with a handful of stones, but a balloon of joy. In the midst of the darkness, we will laugh and play and celebrate.
Joy is my weapon.
I’ve found such great joy in your outpouring of love!
Many of you have asked how you can help specifically:
1. We need your prayer. Everything I’ve written to date highlights my faith in Scripture and the power of prayer. Prayer is the ultimate game changer. Please pray the cancer will be eradicated and never return, but also pray for emotional, physical, and spiritual strength during this time. Pray for joy and pray that we sleep sweetly. This is crucial. When I don’t sleep, my body can’t fight the cancer and my emotions and mind are weakened to fight the daily assault of negative thinking. Will you commit to pray for Leif and I?
2. If you're going to buy a resource, snatch it directly through our website. Leif and I have worked together for the last six years. We don’t have an outside source of income. We live with self-paid health insurance. Over the next few months, our income will be radically reduced at the same time we will be facing herculean medical bills. When you order books and Bible studies through our website, it increases the funds we receive by 5-10 times. If you’re considering taking a group through one of my Bible studies, know that orders placed through www.margaretfeinberg.com make an enormous difference.
3. Consider the best kind of gift. A few dear friends have already sent us gifts upon hearing the news. The packages are wrapped in love and affection, but to be honest, I’m having to re-gift them—because these well-meaning gifts actually undermine my chances of beating cancer. I have a whole new list of foods, allergies, chemicals, and products I need to stay away from. Some “natural” things I thought would be amazing can actually undermine the effectiveness of the chemotherapy. If you are one of those beloved people who loves to send gifts, here is what would bless us most:
First, send a gift to someone that you know who already has cancer or who is battling another illness! Remind them that you are praying for them and thinking of them. Then, if you still want to send something to us consider the following:
- Gift cards or eGift cards to Whole Foods or Sprouts
- Gift cards or eGift cards to Amazon
- Gift cards or eGift cards to Sephora or Ulta
- Gift cards or eGift cards for movie tickets or Groupon
We’re in the process of changing all the products in our home—from cleaning supplies and detergents to makeup. That’s why the gift cards are so helpful. They let me pick out the products that won’t cause harm or allergies. The gift cards to joy-filled activities help get me out of the house, give me something to look forward to and dream about, and something else to talk about besides cancer. Our address is PO Box 441 Morrison, CO 80465. If you prefer to email, send it to email@example.com, and she will pass it along.
This will refine me, but I will not let it define me.
We are grateful for you and all of your support. We will continue to share updates after Leif and I have had time to process and navigate this challenging terrain with our incredible medical team, so thank you in advance for your grace and patience.
Much love and joy,
Margaret, Leif & Hershey